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chills or tears?

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I have shared this story with a few friends this past month and got different reactions: Chills or tears.

The past few years God has given me a word for the year.

A word to keep me on track

To keep my perspective when things get tough.

Remain grounded.

2012 my word was OVERCOME.  And we did.  It was one tough year, yet there were lessons learned, fears faced and challenges triumphed.

However a few weeks ago I hit a wall.  I had completely lost my focus.  I had “overcome” within my grasp and yet I felt defeated.  I couldn’t snap out of it.

Then God sat down with me.  I only had to invite Him (but sometimes we forget right?).  I was reminded of all the ways I had “overcome” this past year.   But then it hit me.  God had already given me the word “conquer” a few days prior.  This day it overwhelmed me…so overwhelmed.  I heaved.  I had barely made it through 2012.

“God, how in the world will I be able to CONQUER?  I have nothing left…nothing.  Can’t I have a word like “heal,” or “rest?”

{silence}

So I waited and continued to heave.

There have only been a few times in my life when I knew God was right with me and spoke as clear as day to me. I welcomed another one to add to my list.

“Leah, you have overcome, and you have done it well.  It is time to conquer, but this time it is up to Me, and I have already started

After a deep breath: peace

Rest, I did.

Heal, we will.

What’s your reaction? Mine…pure peace. Consider inviting God to join you.


8 Comments
  1. Oh that’s wonderful Leah! I’ve had a really hard year too, been in a an abusive situation and nearly lost my marriage…. things have gotten better in Dec, although the last 2 days have not been good, not the way I wanted to start the new year… but I have hope and I trust God has plans for me – good plans – and I comfort myself with that and the knowledge that He holds me in his loving arms. It’s encouraging to hear how God has encouraged you. be blessed!
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    • I certainly hope things improve for you. Abuse is not something to let slide or allow anyone to get away with. Emotional or physical. Please make sure you are in a safe place and reach out to someone for help. God certainly will guide you and protect you. For both of us may 2013 be a new year of hope for us and our family.

  2. I’ve never had a moment of clarity quite like that one!
    Shell recently posted..Pour Your Heart Out: ChangeMy Profile

    • I think I can only recall about 3 or 4 times. I certainly cling to them. I’m sure they are a different experience for each person.

  3. What a beautiful experience! I’m going to run the word “rest” by God too. :) It’s worth a shot! But it sounds like a great year to conquer! You’ll be great!
    Erica {let why lead} recently posted..Life Snapshot #3My Profile

  4. Leah, I don’t know what your life has been like. I only know you from this post, and it sounds like it’s been tough. You mentioned feeling defeated, and how you barely made it through 2012. And I’m so happy you had such a comforting moment of clarity. And that your Word feels so right for you. I’m wishing you a much different year for 2013, one that overflows with peace and happy moments.
    Blessings,
    Leslie (aka Gwen Moss)

  5. Thanks so much for sharing this! I featured it at this week’s Grace at Home party!
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